You will almost go into a womb posture, just as the child remains in the mother’s womb.Enter into your own womb and just be there.Just be acquainted with what it is.It is something that you have never known.Your mind is apprehensive because it is coming from a very different and unknown dimension.The mind cannot cope with it.The unknown never becomes part of the known.The unknown remains unknowable.Even when you have known it, it remains unknown.The mystery is never solved.The mystery is intrinsically unsolvable.So every night go into that space.By and by the fear will be less and less and rejoicing will come more and more.Within three weeks one day suddenly you will see such blessings arising, such an upsurge of energy, such a joyous quality to your being, as if the night is over and the sun has come on the horizon.Whenever my parents scolded me or said anything about me that I felt was negative, I would just shut off, run away, and console myself with the idea that I could do without people, I could manage alone.Now I’m beginning to see that I react to my friends just the same way.It is just an old habit that has become rigid.Try to do the opposite of it.If you want to stop the argument, don’t stop but jump into it with as much vigor as possible.A small child ordinarily cannot fight, particularly in traditional countries.In America, a child will fight so much that the parents will take the flight!The only way is to close, to wrap oneself inside oneself as protection.So you have learned the trick of flight.Now the only possibility is that whenever you feel you are trying to escape, stick there, be stubborn, and give a good fight.Just for one month try the opposite and then we will see.Once you can do the opposite you will understand how to drop both.Because one wrong has gone too deep in you, it has to be balanced by the other.And you will feel very good, really good, mm?Because whenever one escapes, one feels very bad, inferior.Then we will drop both, because to be brave is also, deep down, to be cowardly.When bravery and cowardice both disappear, then one becomes fearless.You have to dig deep into your memories.You have to go into your past.You have to clean your mind of the past impressions.Make it a meditation.Every day, in the night, for one hour just go back.Try to find out all that has happened in your childhood.Allow them to surface.Going every day, you will feel deeper and deeper.First you will remember somewhere when you were at the age of four or five, and you will not be able to go beyond that.Suddenly, a China Wall will face you.People have reached to the point where they were born from the womb.There have been people who have reached into the memories of the womb, and there are people who have reached beyond that, into the other life when they died.But if you can reach to the point where you were born, and you can relive that moment, it will be of deep agony, pain.You will almost feel as if you are being born again.You may scream as the child screamed for the first time.You may have to move to that point.From there you come back.Go again, come back, every night.It will take at least three to nine months, and every day you will feel more unburdened, more and more unburdened, and trust will arise simultaneously, by the side.Once the past is clear and you have seen all that has happened, you are free of it.Awareness liberates, unconsciousness creates a bondage.Then trust will become possible.The left hand is joined with the right brain, and courage comes from the right side.The left brain is the seat of reason, and reason is a coward.That’s why you will not find a man brave and intellectual together.And whenever you find a brave man you will not find an intellectual.He will be irrational, bound to be so.So the right hand goes underneath the left hand and both the thumbs join each other.And when you don’t breathe by the nose, the old pattern of the mind does not function anymore.This will be a new thing, and in a new breathing system a new habit can be formed more easily.Second, when you don’t breathe through the nose, it does not stimulate your brain.Otherwise a constant stimulation and massage goes on.That’s why breathing changes in our nostrils again and again.After each forty minutes they change.So simply sit in this posture, breathing by the mouth.The nose is dual, the mouth is nondual.Breathing through the nose you cannot remain in one state.The state changes automatically, without your knowing it changes.So this will create a very, very silent, nondual, new state of relaxation, and your energies will start flowing in a new way.Simply sit silently doing nothing for at least forty minutes.If it can be done for one hour that will be a great help.So if possible, start with forty minutes, then by and by reach sixty.Enjoy any opportunity that comes on your way to do something, to be creative.So the moment you drop it, you start feeling afraid.It is a kind of psychological protection, that’s what it is.The child is bound to be afraid.In the mother’s womb he is not afraid.He is already in paradise.Things cannot be better than they are.He is completely protected in a warm, cozy home, floating in chemicals that are nourishing.In nine months he passes through millions of years of evolution, from the very first being up to now.He passes through all the phases.As the child comes out of the mother’s womb, the first thing that happens to him is fear.His home is lost, his security is lost.His warmth, his surroundings, all that he knew as his world is completely lost, and he is thrown into a strange world, of which he knows nothing.He has to start breathing on his own.Just to bring him to his senses the doctor hangs him upside down and hits him on his bottom, hard.And just out of that hit he starts breathing.Have you ever observed that whenever you are afraid, your breathing changes?If you have not watched it before, you can watch it now.Whenever you are afraid, your breathing will change, immediately.And when you are at ease, at home, unafraid of anything, you will find your breathing falling into a harmony, in a deep accord, becoming more and more silent.In deep meditation it happens sometimes that you feel as if your breathing has stopped.It does not stop, but it almost stops.The beginning for the child is fear of everything.For nine months he was in darkness, and in a modern hospital, where he is going to be born, there will be just glaring tube lights all around.And on his eyes, his retina, which has never seen light before, not even a candlelight, this is too much.This light is a shock to his eyes.And you know it perfectly well, that nobody is more helpless than a human child, no other child in the whole existence.The child of the elephant immediately starts walking and looking around and exploring the world.He is not as helpless as a human child.Have you everobserved thatwhenever you areafraid, your breathingchanges?If you have notwatched it before, youcan watch it now.Whenever you areafraid, your breathingwill change,immediately.In animals, families don’t exist for the simple reason that the child does not need the parents.Man had to decide for a certain system.The father and the mother have to be together to look after the child.Where is he going to find food?Whom is he going to ask?What is he going to ask?Perhaps he has come too early?But the human body is such that the mother cannot carry the child for more than nine months, otherwise she will die, and her death will mean the death of the child.It has been calculated that if the child can live in the mother’s womb for at least three years, then perhaps there will be no need for a father and mother and the family, and the society.But the child cannot live in the mother’s womb for three years.The first experience of the child is the fear, and the last experience of the man is also fear.He was living in a certain world, which was absolutely satisfactory.He was not in any need at all, he was not greedy for anything more.Scientists say that we have not been able yet to create a home as cozy as the womb.We have even tried to make water beds, to give you the same feeling.But how long can you lie down in a bathtub?We have isolation tanks that are nothing but a search for the same womb that you have lost.Sometimes he has significant ideas.For example, he thinks this idea of man making love to the woman is nothing but an effort to enter the womb again.There may be something in it.He cannot reach that womb, that is true.The airplane can give you exactly the same situation, but it is not going to be satisfactory.Sigmund Freud is notan enlightened man–in fact he is a littlebit cuckoo, butsometimes cuckoosalso sing beautifulsongs.Sometimes he hassignificant ideas.The child has not known anything else.You were not needed even to push a button.Even before you were hungry, you were fed.Even before you needed air, it reached you.You had no responsibility at all.So the child coming out of the mother’s womb, if he feels it at all, must feel it as death.He cannot feel it as birth, that is impossible.Now we are on this side, we don’t know the other side.We are on this side and this man is dying.But that only he knows, and he cannot turn back and tell us, Don’t be worried.I am not dying, I am being reborn.