Chris’s Diary

I don’t know how to even start…

Today was supposed to be a happy day, the day I finely come back home from that horrible war. The day I get to see dad and mom… and Larry… oh Larry.

The day started like this, I was dropped at the main station and was to catch a bus home, but when I arrived to the bus station I saw my dad, I was so confuse at first but so happy to see him for the first time in a very long time. I hugged him and asked him a million questions, how’s mom? How’s work? Has Larry arrived yet? I didn’t noticed at the time, but my father’s eyes turned sad like he was reminded of something terrible, but now it’s all clear to me.

The drive home was silence, and dad refused to answer any of my questions until we get home, my first warning bell, but I was blessedly unaware. When we arrived mom was sitting on the porch staring into the distance and seemed almost unaware at our arrival until I called her. The hug she gave me was so tight it seems like she is afraid I was going to disappear, after what seems like minutes she let go and asked if we could talk in the kitchen. When we all got comfortable silence lingered until I had enough and asked what’s going on, mom looked like she is about to cry and dad wouldn’t even looked at me. Mom started, “about a month ago a messenger came and he informed us that your brothers… my Larry’s plane went missing while he was flying near enemy ground” she said while crying. No, no, no, no… “But it doesn’t mean he is dead, he is just missing and he will come back to us, I just know it” she continued in a tone that seemed like she is trying to convince herself and not me. I sat there couldn’t hear a word while mom continued with her mad rambling, dad still didn’t looked at me. I cut my mother off, I couldn’t deal with this right now I needed some time to process alone. It seemed like everything around me wasn’t real, like it was just a nightmare I was having, oh how I wish it was a nightmare. I finally got to my room, everything was just like I left it. The light shined from the window lighting my room I noticed while I bitterly thought the sun shouldn’t shine on a day like this everything should be dark, because Larry.. Oh Larry… is… gone, and I knew as much as I hated it, as much as I cried and punched the walls, Larry is not coming back.